When one finds themself to be free of a partnership, it is a liberating and difficult time. Getting out of a ten month relationship is an unusual experience, I find myself thinking of things that I want to tell that person or I look around my room and I see reminders of memories. Yet, when something ends in a natural way, how can it be upsetting? I have always wanted to strive for the best and work hard for it, and I could see in this relationship that no matter how much I poured in, it couldn’t be reciprocated. Giving up, walking away, or simply not hiding from the truth or rejection, is not failure. It is healthy to recognise situations as unhealthy or one’s you shouldn’t be a part of anymore. I think the key lesson I found in it, is that loving someone who does not love themself will not ever work, not for me. I need happiness and positivity and confidence. I realise this cannot be constant, but consistent is good.
At least I know what I want, and I feel a sense of self-worth about it.