last week i felt something creep up on me
after lying with you staring into your eyes
i found myself thinking of what this might be.
it was slower than normal
but i needed that.
last time my heart was shredded on stage,
and i can’t have that happen again.
i was happy with the rhythm we had found together,
until you asked me what we were.
i had to answer that honestly,
since my tongue had been in someone else’s mouth not 24 hours before.
we were just dating
to me at that stage.
you asked me if i wanted to just be yours
and for you to just be mine.
i told you no,
for no reason but that i don’t want to be put
in my place
where my cheeks burned with torture and embarrassment
with disappointment and disdain.
it had nothing to do with you
i was just trying selfish on for size.
it felt really good for a moment,
it fit me well.
but then you said you didnt want to see me again
and i understand why
but now i think of her again and how much she
broke me, after all the promises that she wouldn’t.
i felt something creep up on me
but it was just me
telling me to be alone.
then i vanished.
me me me
i i i